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Things I Never Got To Say To The Man Who Abused Me
My therapist said this could help…so here goes nothing.
4 min readNov 12, 2024
- I was never the ‘crazy’ one; your betrayal, manipulation and psychological abuse made me feel crazy and ultimately suicidal. My only fault was letting you affect my state of mind.
- Even after all these years and years of therapy, the abuse and torment you put me through haunts me in my dreams, and I wake up from those nightmares in relief that the man sleeping next to me isn’t you.
- It was my love that made you special, and it was my warmth that made you kind. After all these years, I realise I don’t miss you, but the rosy-tinted version of you that my mind created, which never existed.
- Best friends don’t hurt, belittle, betray, cheat, isolate, or manipulate each other. You used to call me your best friend as a ruse, to make you my entire world so that you could use me to your advantage.
- I was always out of your league, and that made you feel insecure, which is why you cheated on me repeatedly. I could not give you much love to resolve your insecurities.
- Your tortured version of ‘love’ was the love I grew up receiving from my emotionally immature parents and narcissistic mother, and so I mistook your abuse for love. Your abuse felt like home…
